Monday, 19 December 2011

I Ate'nt Dead

Holy Smoke, has it really been going on for a month since I last posted? It doesn't seem that long, but I guess a lot of things have happened since then.

Namely, I got sick. In the head. I've suffered depression before (and it was one of the things that led me to belly dance as a way of making myself feel good), but this latest crisis has been a particularly bad one, and my recovery is going to be a slow one. For a week or two, dance fell off my radar, but it's something that brings me a lot of joy, so I've been working hard to stay connected.

That paid off last night, when I got back onstage. I danced a lovely veil piece with my teacher's student troupe, and it felt great to be up there and dancing again. I was wondering if stage fright was going to be an issue, but all I felt was joy and excitement at performing!

I think that will be the last outing for this costume in its current form though- straight, skinny belts are just not a good look on apple-bodied chicks, and the bra is now a good two sizes too big and I've lost my chicken fillets!

Anyway, that was the last hafla before Christmas, so now it's back to present wrapping, packing to visit family, and deciding which abandoned sewing project needs reviving.

I hope everyone out there in the blogosphere has a very merry festivity of choice!


  1. Sorry to hear about your depression - been there and done that a time or two myself, and it sure ain't fun. Much sympathy.
    I'm glad the dancing helped - it is one of the things that keeps me going, too. I always feel good when I've been dancing - nice to know it works for others, too.
    Best wishes for a positive and dance-full 2012 :-) (I've been enjoying your blog for a while now, so thought it was high time I added a comment)

  2. Hi, just wanted to say I've just found your blog, and to wish you well. I too suffer from depression, it's a struggle, but have been looking at bellydance to make me feel better too :) I live in the outback of the Scottish Highlands though, so no troupe or teacher anywhere near me, which means I'm learning from dvd's (apparently frowned upon) and the net. Happy times in 2012 for you. :)

  3. Aw, thanks for the good wishes folks, and welcome to the blog.

    Ina- DVDs may be second best, but they're a damn sight better than not dancing at all. Having spent a lot of time in the Highlands, I can well believe that you are beyond the reach of a teacher!

  4. I love your costume! I love the color of your skirt. i love designing and drawing costumes, Great blog. new follower!